This is the heaviest I’ve been since college, back when I was binge-drinking beer and just generally letting myself go. At the time, I was going through some very emotionally draining events in my life. Unfortunately, it sucks to say this, but recently for quite some time I’ve been going through some very emotionally draining things, stuff that just taxed me and left me spent. Sorry for being so tight-lipped about it but I’m not quite ready to talk about it all now.
It’s a very disappointing weight for me. Mainly because I’m not healthy and not taking care of myself and I don’t feel good. I’m a stress eater. I tend to self-medicate with food and drink when I’m stressed so when I’m this heavy, I know something is wrong. I know it’s just a symptom of a larger problem that I’m not addressing.
But for me, sharing this photo with everyone is important for a couple of reasons. Firstly, I usually try to hide stuff like this, but I’m trying to be more honest about my troubles. So, I wanna acknowledge that I’m not in a great place right not, but I think that’s the first step toward moving on. Secondly, and this may be wishful thinking, but I’m hoping this marks a turning point. Hoping to look back at this and see it as the point where I started to change for the better.
Time will tell. Check back with me in a few months.
if you’re reading this, thanks.