Alright everyone, I’m going to keep this post focused mainly on the writing, because for some reason, I’m not really feeling putting out a super personal post as I usually do.

This month of September was a vacation month for me, so I spent about two weeks with family. It was a great time and I got a lot of energy from it. It really left me in good spirits. I always get this sense of responsibility when I’m with family. It’s a good reminder of why I started writing in the first place. I didn’t grow up in a great area, and I always looked at writing as the lottery ticket that would get me out of the hood. I saw it as a way to help my family. That rags-to-riches story. Over the years, my motivations for writing have matured, but every once in a while, I’m reminded of that hunger that I felt when I was a poor kid in Philly.

I also spent some time introducing my family to some close friends. I can’t begin to say how lucky I am in regards to my friends. They really treated me and my family well. What can I say? It really makes me want to be a better person as well and invest more in my relationships. I haven’t been the best in this area, Lord knows, but I’m going to do better.

So, not too much happened in the writing department. I adjusted my expectations a bit due to the family vacation, so I knew that my output wouldn’t be as much. Still, I think there was about a stretch of a week during the visit where I didn’t write. Despite not much output happening, a lot of internal things happened to me as a writer. Mainly, I just feel much more composed as a writer than ever before. I looked back at some of my blog posts from previous years, and it’s very different than how I’m feeling now. I was much more insecure and unsure of myself. It took years of hard work, failure, and lessons learned in order to overcome those things, but I feel like I’m really getting into the zone with my craft. And I know there is still a lot more hard work, failure, and lessons learned ahead of me.

As you may know, I closed out Part 3 (technically, Part 3B) of my novel. I’ve been focusing more on quality so it’s fairly well-developed. But it got a little bit rough toward the end and I think I got a little impatient and lost focus.
The current status of the novel is that I’m now on Part 4 of 6. As a reminder, each part of the novel is about 10k words each, so when I finish the draft, I’m anticipating it to be around 60k words. My process has been much more focused on writing quality, so it’s been a slow and steady pace but I’m happy with the results. The previous segment that I finished was fairly well-developed, but I’m hoping to improve upon that as I go into Part 4.

Going forward, I’m just hoping to stay focused on and committed to the craft. I want to show up every day and put in the work needed to make this the best possible story it can be. There is a lot of blood, sweat, and tears that go into this writing thing. But I know that if I want future success, then this is where I earn it.

Anyway, that’s all for now. I haven’t been super detailed in my last few posts and I’m trying to figure out a way to address that issue. But just know that I’m in a good place now and I find myself starting to build some momentum in the right direction.

In October, I hope to update everyone and tell you that I’ve maintained a consistent quality throughout the writing.

-Peter

Hello everyone,

It’s that time again for another recap of the month. I hope you’ve all had an awesome summer so far and stayed cool. It looks like the weather is changing so hopefully we get some relief from all the heat we’ve been having.

Here’s my breakdown of what happened for me this month in writing:

PROCESS:

June and July was mainly focused on recovery and getting back to some sort of equilibrium with my life. But this month of August for me was mostly getting back on the horse again and starting to build the daily habits that I need to do. I’ll be honest with you, it’s still a huge task just to summon the energy every day. A lot of the days in August were extremely hot, and I just did not feel like doing anything. Plus, the energy and motivation just wasn’t there. I attribute the low energy to a poor diet, lack of exercise, and mostly not totally being in the right mental and emotional state to really work at the high level needed to write a novel.

RESULTS:

I closed out a short story this month. An idea that I had that I really wanted to share with other people. Currently, it’s being reviewed by some trusted readers and soon I’ll start the revision process on it. Hoping to release it quite soon! The story is about a man who is unsatisfied with his life and his marriage. I’m still thinking of a title for it. Excited to put it out there!

In summary, I would say that the writing process was inconsistent but there were some good moments. This month wasn’t perfect, not by a long shot, but it was necessary. Definitely I’m getting back into my daily grind and I’m hoping to keep building momentum going into September. Next month, I’m going to be super focused on the novel.

Thanks,

Peter

Sorry for the wait. My mind has been everywhere these days and updating this blog has kind of fallen by the wayside. Apologizing for late posts seems like a common refrain these days. I’ll do better.

June was a rough month for me emotionally. Personally, I all but abandoned my daily routine — a routine that was getting fairly respectable. For my daily routine, I usually like to only a handful of things: read, write, workout, clean, eat healthily, learn something new, spend time with friends or family. I did none of those things. If I did them, I did them poorly. My apartment was a mess, my writing wasn’t consistent, and my diet consisted of a lot of delivery pizza. The only thing that I managed to hold onto was writing, and eventually, even that fell through. 

The reasons for this was that (1) I had a falling out with a friend. And (2) I sustained an injury. Both of these things combined definitely took a toll on me. Where the mind goes, the body follows.

July was more of the same. I wasn’t in a great space mentally and emotionally, so I was just kind of letting life go on as it may, but there was a turning point. I took a much-needed trip to Hong Kong for some personal healing. The time away was good, if just a distraction. I came back feeling better. 

It’s the end of July now. I’ve processed those negative emotions associated with my two setbacks. For starters, I know that sometimes it’s in our best interest to remove people from our lives. And despite some lingering feelings, I’ve made my peace with it. Secondly, I’ve essentially healed up my injury and made a recovery. I am grateful for every day spent with my health.

There are a few people who I would like to thank for their support during this time.

  • Jason – Thanks for being my good friend during this time. Thanks for sharing your own heartbreak with me. Thanks for an awesome time taking our mini traveling together. Let’s have more great times, bro.
  • Brian – Thank you for showing up at my apartment with fried chicken from gangneung. We didn’t do anything special but spend time together while I complained to you. And you were totally fine with that. Thanks for just being you. 
  • Paulo – Thanks for being there just to chat or have a meal together. Maybe it was just eating a cheeseburger near our apartment, but it was very meaningful to me. Thanks for sharing stories about your life and family, those lessons are now my lessons. Obrigado, my friend.

Going forward, I’m feeling much more optimistic about the future. Not only that, but I’m trying to be much more content in the present. There will certainly be challenges ahead, but I believe now more than ever that what I’m pursuing is a noble cause. For the month of August, I’m looking to get refocused and centered on the important things in my life. I’m hoping to update everyone one month from now with some good news.

Sorry for the wait!

Little late with these posts but my mind wasn’t really on writing this month. For the month of May, writing came to a screeching halt. Productivity on my writing slowed. My word count dropped. So did the quality. I even dropped my habit of daily writing. All in all, a really poor month for writing.

Even though this month wasn’t as productive, I’ve learned not to be too disappointed in myself. I’ve been doing this long enough to know that sometimes you have killer months and sometimes it just doesn’t flow like you want it to.

I attribute the lack of productivity mainly to life. You know, I always want to write but I don’t want my writing to stop me from living. I realize that what’s going on around me is quite important to deal with it, and you simply can’t ignore your feelings and mentality to just put your head down and write. There are some writers that can do that, put their head down and write while their house is on fire. But I like to keep a good balance. I know that when everything is balanced my writing is at its best.

So what’s been going on in my life that’s been preventing me from writing? Well frankly, I met someone who I thought was going to be a really good friend but that wasn’t the case. As a result, my emotions this month have been pretty wild. I’ve gone from being euphoric to being utterly disappointed. Sometimes you have high hopes for a person but that doesn’t always pan out how you hope. I usually take these kinds of setbacks rather hard. I’m emotional, after all. My friends are much more even-keeled than me. I always tell my friends that writing and work are stresses that people can handle. I know that if I put X amount of work into it, I can expect some kind of result. But people are unknown quantities. You don’t always get what you put into it. Sometimes, you invest a lot in someone, and you never get any results.

And that’s okay. It’s okay to take a loss. And it’s okay to be disappointed, even hurt. When you’re feeling down it’s really important to do the things that you do well. And to remember why you have value as a person. The main thing is to continue the things that give you deep satisfaction. I know when I accomplish certain things in a day, it really elevates my mood. For me, that’s working out and reading and studying. And writing. Especially writing. Writing really gives me a sense of accomplishment and is great whenever I need a boost for my self-esteem. I know I’m not the prettiest boy. I’m not the richest boy. But give me a pencil and paper and I know I can write fire. The joy I get from putting together sentences is something that I will always cherish.

Going into June, I changed my process to write slower. Instead of going for high word count 500+ words, I’m focusing more on writing quality. I’m down to about 250 words per day. I’m much happier now with my writing than before. I realize writing is a big part of my self-image. When I write trash, I feel like trash. When I write gold, I feel like a million bucks. Of course, this delays my completion date but I’m not worried about it anymore. I’m gonna focus on writing these little bits of writing and continue the daily battle. My new mantra is “write good today, feel good today.”

Sorry for the wait! I was really struggling this month with writing, so I couldn’t take any time off to write a blog post. As a recap, I’m working on my behemoth cyberpunk novel. Here’s what happened in April:

After a solid stretch of writing flow, my productivity has slowed down considerably. My daily output went down to a few hundred words per day, and the focus wasn’t really there as well. I attribute that to a few issues:

  1. Time Management. I like to take a short nap before I start writing, but this month I’ve been skipping the nap. As a result, I’ve been a little less refreshed going into each writing session. Need to work on managing my time a little better.
  2. Outline Issues. I got some things wrong with my outline, so a lot the stuff that was originally planned had to be scrapped. Starting from scratch is always tough, so there was no way I was going to be as productive as if I had a solid outline.
  3. “Life, man. Just life.” Writing isn’t my life. It’s just a part of my life. A very important one, but a part nonetheless. With that being said, my life outside of writing has taken a bit of a priority this month.

In Summary, I’m not even mad. I know them’s the breaks. I’ve been here before and I’m confident that I just need to ride out the lows. Sometimes the writing flows, and sometimes it trickles. I’m still maintaining an optimistic attitude about putting out this novel next year. I’m not thinking about the prize anymore. This is just what I do everyday and I know the results will come.

Next month I’m aiming to get back into a flowy state and finish out this segment of the novel.

One last thing. I really want to give something to anyone who reads this post, so I’ll leave with this little daily motivation, it’s a lesson that I’ve learned over the years.

Sometimes the desire just isn’t there. You know what you have to do, whatever it is you’re working on, or any goals that you have. Whether that’s completing school or starting a business. But there’s days when it’s just a grind. That’s okay. Keep going through the motions. Just do it. Because you will eventually come out of the slump, and when you do, it’s better to have a little something to show for it rather than nothing at all.

After lots of consideration, I’ve decided that my currently untitled cyberpunk project will be a novel. Throughout developing this idea, I’ve explored choosing different mediums. When I originally started writing this, I thought it would be a graphic novel. However, a combination of factors led to the decision to write a novel.

First was the overall difficulty in finding an illustrator who I thought would be able to bring this story to life. I left myself a good amount of time to find someone, but as time went on, I realized it was going to be much more challenging than anticipated. That being said, I’ve worked with some really talented concept artists and the experience was great. So stay tuned, I may drop some more concept art soon.

Secondly, and more importantly, is I think that writing a novel is the best thing to do for both myself and the readers. The words on the page will be 100% what I imagine the story to be and readers will be able to get the full immersive experience, from the world to the characters and the full range of dialogue. I’m going to be able to have full control over the experience. I’m positive this will result in a more satisfying experience.

As for me, one of the reasons why I haven’t written a novel is that I thought that I could never actually write a novel. One of the reasons why I chose to study screenwriting was because of that fear. Over the years, I’ve even attempted to write a few novels and failed. I think the failures were one reason why I was scared to actually try writing another novel. It became this big mental hurdle. But there’s a quote that says, “do what scares you, because it will give you the most growth.” I’m honestly quite terrified to write this, but I need to block out the self-doubt and embrace the passion that made me begin this journey to begin with. This will be the most rewarding choice for me.

There are lots of challenges on the road ahead. For one is managing expectations. The word count of a novel is three or four times longer than a screenplay, which I’m more accustomed to writing. I need to understand that the results won’t come fast and that I will probably be finished by sometime next year. I gotta stay focused on the daily process and not be too concerned about the results at this moment.

Next is just trying to tell the story in my own voice and with my own words. I’ll speak more on this later, but I’m just going to try to express myself the best way that I can.

Finally, for everyone who is checking in on me and dropping positive comments, I can’t begin to tell you how crucial you are. I appreciate all of it. I wanna give a special shout out to my good friend Natasha who has been so supportive of my work. Your words of encouragement are really touching and I appreciate it a lot.

And anyone who read my work: Thank You!!! Seriously, usually only friends, partners, or family members are the ones who read an up-and-coming writer’s work. This is the whole reason why I do this; to share my work with others. So if you took a chance on me and read any of my stories, thank you.

I’ll probably be posting a little bit more this month, so keep on the lookout for some more updates.

-Peter

What’s up everyone,

Lots of stuff to update you with so this is going to be a little bit of a longer post. It was pretty a hectic month honestly and not my most focused month, but I still managed to get some work done. Mainly this month was about five things:

1. UNTITLED CYBERPUNK NOVEL

I continued working on Issue #5 and Issue #6 of my untitled cyberpunk novel. Generally, I’m happy with the progress so far. I may have to alter some of my scene list because I may have pushed too far away from what made the original story so appealing to me. One of the challenges as a writer is maintaining a consistent tone throughout the entire story. When I first started my project, it was a hard-boiled noir, but I’ve gone a little further away from that as I added details to the story. It’s a little lighter in tone and those crime/noir elements need to be brought back in.

But more importantly, I’m kind of at a critical crossroads right now. One reason is that I haven’t found an artist/illustrator that I really connect with in terms of what I want to convey. So now, the project could go one of two ways, novel or comic, and I’m still considering both — so I may need to take a moment to figure out my next route.

2. MY SCRIPT “FOOTPRINTS IN THE SNOW”

I did a table read with the director and some actors. It was a pleasure working with actors again. The energy and insight that they brought to the read was phenomenal. I got a lot of great notes, but now we need to figure out the direction for the next draft.

3. I WORKED ON SHORTS

I opened back up some short stories. I mainly did this to practice the act of writing words on the page again. It’s been a while since writing prose, so I wanted to make sure I didn’t get super rusty.

On the plus side, I think I may have found some styles that I can run with — it’s the most natural style for me, and the one where it just feels like my voice.

I’m tempted to jump into shorts again to finish what was left unfinished last year. (Last year, I wanted to complete 10 shorts, but failed) If only to prove to myself that I can do it. But ultimately, I think I need to stay focused on my main projects and not get sidetracked with too many side projects.

4. DEALT WITH PERSONAL LIFE

Being a writer, it’s really easy to become so engrossed in your writing that you let everything else fall by the wayside. This simply isn’t a sustainable approach to writing, you’ve gotta work on maintaining a healthy work/life balance.

That being said, I can’t do my best work when my personal life isn’t in order.

I had one too many late nights this month, and I need to remind myself that what I’m trying to achieve is more important than going out and having a drink. I’m very mindful that what I do outside of writing directly affects the quality of my work. This writing thing is such a relentless game and so many people want it — you can’t let distractions sideline you.

I’m going to continue working on myself — keep pursuing a good schedule, a healthy diet and mindset, and good relationships with people. Am I going to stick to my routine perfectly and never make any mistakes? Of course not. But I don’t ever give up. Ever.

5. STARTED SOCIAL MEDIA AGAIN

I started posting/sharing my work on social media again.

I originally quit because I was getting way too distracted with it and it was taking me away from writing.

But I realize I have friends and real people who are curious about me and they genuinely are curious to see what I’m up to, so I wanna post in order to keep people up to date. I’m not going to push myself.

I will try to post/share more of what I’m working on. Sorry for the wait!

WHAT HAPPENS NEXT MONTH?

Alright, so now that I wrote everything down, there is simply way too much on my plate at the moment. I’m juggling way too many things and I need to minimize my approach. Next month, going into April, I need to calm down a bit and focus on only one or two projects.

Lastly, I’ll leave with a quote that I recently read. Maybe you can tell me what it means to you:

“Go with the choice that scares you the most, because that’s the one that’s going to help you grow.”