What’s up everyone,

Lots of stuff to update you with so this is going to be a little bit of a longer post. It was pretty a hectic month honestly and not my most focused month, but I still managed to get some work done. Mainly this month was about five things:

1. UNTITLED CYBERPUNK NOVEL

I continued working on Issue #5 and Issue #6 of my untitled cyberpunk novel. Generally, I’m happy with the progress so far. I may have to alter some of my scene list because I may have pushed too far away from what made the original story so appealing to me. One of the challenges as a writer is maintaining a consistent tone throughout the entire story. When I first started my project, it was a hard-boiled noir, but I’ve gone a little further away from that as I added details to the story. It’s a little lighter in tone and those crime/noir elements need to be brought back in.

But more importantly, I’m kind of at a critical crossroads right now. One reason is that I haven’t found an artist/illustrator that I really connect with in terms of what I want to convey. So now, the project could go one of two ways, novel or comic, and I’m still considering both — so I may need to take a moment to figure out my next route.

2. MY SCRIPT “FOOTPRINTS IN THE SNOW”

I did a table read with the director and some actors. It was a pleasure working with actors again. The energy and insight that they brought to the read was phenomenal. I got a lot of great notes, but now we need to figure out the direction for the next draft.

3. I WORKED ON SHORTS

I opened back up some short stories. I mainly did this to practice the act of writing words on the page again. It’s been a while since writing prose, so I wanted to make sure I didn’t get super rusty.

On the plus side, I think I may have found some styles that I can run with — it’s the most natural style for me, and the one where it just feels like my voice.

I’m tempted to jump into shorts again to finish what was left unfinished last year. (Last year, I wanted to complete 10 shorts, but failed) If only to prove to myself that I can do it. But ultimately, I think I need to stay focused on my main projects and not get sidetracked with too many side projects.

4. DEALT WITH PERSONAL LIFE

Being a writer, it’s really easy to become so engrossed in your writing that you let everything else fall by the wayside. This simply isn’t a sustainable approach to writing, you’ve gotta work on maintaining a healthy work/life balance.

That being said, I can’t do my best work when my personal life isn’t in order.

I had one too many late nights this month, and I need to remind myself that what I’m trying to achieve is more important than going out and having a drink. I’m very mindful that what I do outside of writing directly affects the quality of my work. This writing thing is such a relentless game and so many people want it — you can’t let distractions sideline you.

I’m going to continue working on myself — keep pursuing a good schedule, a healthy diet and mindset, and good relationships with people. Am I going to stick to my routine perfectly and never make any mistakes? Of course not. But I don’t ever give up. Ever.

5. STARTED SOCIAL MEDIA AGAIN

I started posting/sharing my work on social media again.

I originally quit because I was getting way too distracted with it and it was taking me away from writing.

But I realize I have friends and real people who are curious about me and they genuinely are curious to see what I’m up to, so I wanna post in order to keep people up to date. I’m not going to push myself.

I will try to post/share more of what I’m working on. Sorry for the wait!

WHAT HAPPENS NEXT MONTH?

Alright, so now that I wrote everything down, there is simply way too much on my plate at the moment. I’m juggling way too many things and I need to minimize my approach. Next month, going into April, I need to calm down a bit and focus on only one or two projects.

Lastly, I’ll leave with a quote that I recently read. Maybe you can tell me what it means to you:

“Go with the choice that scares you the most, because that’s the one that’s going to help you grow.”

What’s up everybody,

Back to work after taking a week off. I started the break because I think I was burning out from work. I was starting to have some anxiety and stress. I started losing focus and energy toward my main writing project. Actually, I started losing my direction in terms of project focus: I abandoned my main project, and started doing other “work” that seemed to catch my interest. I stopped by A project to work on my B project, but then abandoned that for a C project, and the cycle just continued. I started thinking about social media and marketing and all these other things that I needed to do and it became overwhelming. I started to feel anxious. So, I decided to take a week off for mental health, where I broke free from my normal routine and didn’t put any expectations on myself.

What happened:
Mostly, I wasted time lol. Honestly, I didn’t schedule anything for my break, so the time wasn’t structured, and I didn’t fill it with fun activities like camping or visiting museums or anything like that. Basically, the break was more focused on what I DIDN’T do. I didn’t do any writing or any gym for the week. Mostly I just stayed at the house, had dinner with my neighborhood friends, drank a few beers after work, and mostly just chilled. Oh, I ordered lots of delivery! My food of choice was pizza. As a result, I gained weight. About 2kg.

Did my stress go away?
In a way, taking the break was good. Perhaps doing the same thing over and over again can lead to boredom. Or perhaps limiting your fun by staying in the neighborhood can be difficult. So relaxing and not putting any standards on myself for once kind of felt like a load off. However, I’m not entirely sure my nervousness was due to overwork. I still don’t know the cause of my loss of focus and subsequent stress/anxiety. My best guess is that writing lead to overthinking, which lead to loss of focus, which then lead to anxiety and stress.

Lessons:

  1. I can’t get distracted with other projects. Even though they may seem easier or like a pleasant distraction, I need to think of them as what they are: another form of distraction and a symptom that I’m losing my mental focus. The next time I start losing my focus, I need to be aware of it and then take steps to correct it.
  2. Structure my break time. I need to factor in rest and recovery more. Especially recovery for mental health. Instead of just staying at home and eating pizza, I should engage in healthier activities.
  3. This just reaffirms my belief that I need to take a holistic approach to writing. I can’t write to the best of my abilities when my health is in decline. I can’t concentrate on story when I’m having an argument with someone. I need to stay focused on being a good human first, then I can be a good writer.

Overall, I really needed a break this week to recover. Honestly, my mental health wasn’t good. I needed to do some healing on my mind and body, and just try to figure out what was wrong. I needed to lower my stress and anxiety levels and regain my focus. You know, this writing thing that I’m doing isn’t easy, and it’s not always beneficial to your health. I need to be mindful of that.

Now it’s the new week and I’m back to work. My goal is to stay focused on my main writing project, and also keep a healthy life outside of writing by staying active, surrounding myself with the right people, and prioritizing rest and recovery. I’m still extremely excited to share this new project with you, and I can’t wait to start putting some materials out. There’s a long road of working in silence ahead of me, but I know that it’s going to be worth it.

Oh, and if you’re reading this, I honestly hope some of this stuff helps you. We can all lose our way at times and, even if you’re not a writer, I hope some of this can help you in your daily life as well.

What’s up everybody. Wanted to give y’all a quick update on the progress:

The writing is going quite well. I was really struggling last year, but this year everything is coming together. Of course it’s never easy, and there are constant struggles, but I feel like I broke through a plateau that was hindering me last year. Mostly changing things up in my mindset toward writing.

I’m still on track this month. Specifically, I finished Issue #3 and am closing out Issue #4 of the science fiction project that I’m currently working on. There’s certainly another layer of refinement that it needs, but I’m liking where it’s at so far.

So when can you see some stuff? Well, that’s a tricky question. I’m currently on the fence between releasing this project as a traditional novel and releasing it as a comic book. The deadline will depend on that. If it’s a comic book, it’ll have an earlier release date. If it’s a novel, then that could take me until the end of the year to write. I don’t have to make the decision right now, but hoping to get some clarity in the following months. What would you prefer to read? Let me know!

January is coming to a close, so I’d like to update everyone on where I’m at. Here’s a quick overview of what’s been happening in a few areas:

DAILY PROCESS
I’ve been trying to prioritize the things that will give me more energy to focus on my work, and so far it’s been incredibly helpful. I’m trying to eat right and move around more, and I’m also trying to spend more time around people who are a positive impact on my life. This means some sacrifice; haven’t been going out as much, sleeping late, or indulging as much but right now I’m not missing any of those activities. The benefits have been really great and I’m in a great space.

RESULTS
The outcome of changing my daily process is that I’ve made some good headway into a six part graphic novel series that I’m working on, which is currently untitled. I’ve completed Issue #1 and Issue #2 and began working on Concept Art

NOTES
Still a long way to go, but excited about bringing this project to life and sharing it with everyone. Last year, I had bursts of productivity as well, but managed to get sidelined for a long time. I need to be wary of distractions and just try to stay consistent and disciplined enough to complete my work. Overall, despite some minor hurdles, it’s been a good first month of work.

-Peter

For anyone wondering what I’ve been up to,

I’m currently in the process of launching a new company. It’s going to require a lot of time and effort. Unfortunately, this means that I cannot attend social events or spend time with friends as much as I’d like to. I’m winding down on my social media activities as well. I hope this all results in a greater experience for the fans.

I will be posting updates here on my blog once a month to keep you updated. I hope to share some good news shortly.

Thank you for your continued support.

– Peter

When I first started this year, there were a lot of things that I wanted to accomplish. And I felt like they were reasonable goals that I should have been able to hit. Unfortunately, I didn’t do that and, well, it’s been quite disappointing.

I could sit here and talk about all the reasons why I fell short but I think that is something that I have to address internally and is something that I have to work on in terms of my psychology as a writer. The more you advance in this writing game, the less technical it becomes and the more mental it becomes. And I think that’s what I’m dealing with right now.

The good side is that I know what I have to address and I know that the whole year hasn’t been a total waste because, even though I wasn’t one-hundred percent, I still managed to put in solid work on multiple stories. I haven’t officially published or produced anything yet but just know that I’m currently developing a bunch of material that I’m looking forward to sharing with you.

To all my supporters, thank you for everything. Thanks for your patience. Thanks for being there through the ups-and-downs. I really hope to give back something that can match what you’ve given to me.

Onward.

I haven’t been updating as frequently and I apologize to anyone who’s been wondering about my status. At the end of the year, I always like to reflect, so I took some time to figure out what I’ve been up to.

Here’s a quick breakdown of what I’ve actually produced/finished over the year:

January –
February – Released “The Revolver” – a short story
March –
April –
May – Released “Remembrancy” – a short story
June –
July~December – Worked on “Footprints in the Snow” – a feature-length thriller

Summary:

So it looks like I can divide 2018 can be divided into two halves. The first half of the year I was focused on writing short stories. The second half of the year I was focused on writing a spec screenplay.

1. A collection of short stories (unfinished)
2. A contained thriller (finished)

I abandoned the short story project(released two shorts, but have several half-completed works), but I finished the thriller screenplay. Which is generally more successful year than previous years because I actually completed a project.

It’s been quite an underwhelming year I supposed. I’m not super happy with the results. Mainly because I know I didn’t give it my all. There certainly were times when I could have put in more work, been more committed, been more focused, etc. Alas.

What I learned:

So, now that the year is over, what did I learn?

1. I am a drama writer.
I can write screenplays, comic books, theatre, televison, but not necessarily NOVELS. I want my writing to come to life – I get a lot of energy from the possibility of seeing my words made into reality. I don’t want my writing to be the end result – it’s cool, but I love the synergy that comes with other mediums.

2. I need to develop discipline
That’s probably my biggest flaw right now as a writer. I have several bad habits as a writer, but most can be resolved with discipline. My discipline is just not where it needs to be and I need to address it if I’m going to hit my writing goals next year.

3. Enough practice, time to produce
I was really quiet this year in terms of putting out projects. In many ways, I took the year off to practice writing prose. The year before that, I was also struggling with certain elements of writing. I’d take time to study concepts, plot, scenes. But next year, I’m going to put everything I learned together and just write the damn thing.

Rules/Takeaways for Next Year:

1. You’re never going to feel like it. Do it anyway
Do I always feel like writing? Absolutely not. But if you want to be the best, you have to work overtime.

2. This is your story. Tell it how you want
I spent a lot of time with indecision and doubt in terms of my projects. Seeking outside validation for stories. Wanting confirmation that it was good enough. The best situation that I feel is analogous to writing is the restaurant chef. A chef cooks the dishes. If a diner doesn’t like what the chef is cooking, they can go somewhere else. In this regard, I’m giving myself the authority to trust my gut rather than outside opinions about my work. Granted, I still have my trusted group who gives me feedback.

3. Collaborate with Talented People
I want to surround myself with people that inspire me to do better. It’s tough to meet those kinds of people, but I’m going to make it a priority next year to reach out and collaborate with talented, hard working people.

Anyway, that’s the wrap up of the year! I hope everyone can have a special time with their friends and family these holidays. It’s certainly not all about planning and preparing for WORK. You gotta spend time with loved ones. I hope you all can have a safe and happy rest of 2018.

-Peter